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depressing song time. lets see what song i fall asleep to tonight feel free to suggest some :)

I walked past the house we first met tonight. Just imagine, that was 3 years and nearly 6 months ago. The night I first met you ‘I think you should give me your number’ the famous word of josh. What I would fucjing do to be able to say those words again to you. I spent £1000 tonight and I’m just bored of everything. I want you back. I love you. And I don’t know what to do :(

Anonymous asked: I'm glad to hear you're making some progress. And trust me, I understand it'll always hurt. I just hope the pain will eventually become less and less as time goes on. :)

Yeah. It’s just not fair.

justaquickfix asked: I know she did, but regardless of how you feel for her or how much of a nice person you still see her as, it's obviously not worth it. Hard things get softer over time :) I'm on half term now, but I'm at dads 'til Tuesday so sometime after that? :) xx

Ella, you know how much she meant to me. And yeah maybe weekend after come over with Oscar :-)

Anonymous asked: Hi love, I'm saying this not to be mean, but out of genuine concern. I know she may have been an amazing girl, but you must stop dwelling on the past. You're only bringing yourself down, and therefore preventing yourself from meeting new, amiable girls. In the most kindest tone, please move on. It makes me sad to see you so upset.

It’s hard after spending 3 1/2 years with someone to just up and walk away. She was everything to me. But I’ve accepted it and I’m moving on, keeping my mind off things and getting back on track with my body, mind and lifestyle. It will always hurt though you know?

It started out with a kiss, how did it end up like this? It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss… :(